Selfishness

"You are so spoiled" My aunt commented

that line actually made me really think about my selfishness. Its true I call myself and know that I am selfish, but I never thought deeply about it.

Ive noticed in myself, and in other people who Ive known, have different kind of selfishness. First is the 'Princess' Selfishness, its the inconsiderate and only cares about people who is worthy of their attention(even towards their families), and doesn't tell the truth about a person to their face but does tell someone else even though the person could understand.

Secondly is the 'Its fine if the bad doesn't happen to me or who I know' Selfishness, this person doesn't regret of they caused harm and misery on someone else when it doesn't effect the persons family and friends or anyone they have knowledge with, this person leans towards Business since it fits their nature.

Last but not least is me, I tend to deny that I'm selfish even though I truly admit that I am, I usually am selfish in pleasing others than my own pleasure, and I put their happiness in front of mine even if I had to stay overnight with them and etc. And when I decide to put my own happiness in top of theirs, I become really selfish and regret it deeply in the night before drifting into sleep.

So what do you think is my type of selfishness? and what types have you encountered with?

Memories...

This is something I wrote a year ago, it just popped in my head and I just had to write it down :)

And sorry I used to have a bad grammar back then(still have some until now LOL)

Enjoy!

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Did you have memory that stayed through your head a long while?

If it was a memory of the first time you realized that you’ve gotten taller by an inch in the morning

Or if it was the memory of imagining the life and world of the people in the cars passing by in traffic, and how much affection and care did they have or gave to the passenger

Was there a memory of a loved one cry in your presence that affected you deeply that you might even remember it on the hospital bed with the doctor beating his fist on you’re the left side of your chest

Sometimes, people save these memories in their mind, even if it wasn’t special, but was a small connections or an encounter with a stranger

Would it be the memory of the early mornings in the school bus waving back to the kids in the other car?

Or when exchanging a smile with a waitress in a diner?

Normal people would say that’s just foolish to remember any single detail of a passing stranger, but who are they to define normal if they do the same thing as every human does

Some memories unwarily leaves, with no alert or a sign of it, just walk out of the door leaving chunks or bits

People wonder how they could possibly forget the date of their first greetings with their first love in their lifetime

People also wonder how they would forget the pictures of their old friends in an old floppy disk

They also wonder how couldn’t they realize that their children has matured a lot that they already got a job at an office and sometimes came back home drunk or drugged

If it was possible, if you can collect all the memories from everyone around the world

Think … how a heart would understand countless experiences of hardship or happiness that large and big crates couldn’t hold

Think … of the people that created those memories, how they felt, how they lived it, and how it possessed them for a few seconds of a minute while laying down on their bed before falling in a deep sleep

Keep a memo to yourself how wonderful a memory means, how emotions it carries and how it just attracts a simple attention from you

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