Funny.

Its funny when you think a subject will go just fine, and we will just laugh about it, but it turns to an unexpected way. Perhaps to an awkward way, or an angry situation, maybe only frustration will be felt, or simply weird.

Funny, is a word used for something that brings joy to a person, makes them laugh or giggle, but it can also be used as the other word of weird, how odd it is, how strange and unusual a thing is.

Funny, is how I feel now, I cant even describe it, its simply a funny feeling from many reasons, and the flu is definitely none of them.

Funny, how I cant understand why these reasons are affecting me this much.

Funny is also how this can be one of my darkest posts ever XD

Why??? Just why???

Israel Gaza strike kills 155, Hamas fire kills one
http://www.alarabiya.net/articles/2008/12/27/62895.html

I felt so much hatred, so much from their comments of encouraging the Israel, and talking about how the NEW WORLD should have less Muslims.

"i like this ride, right in the time"

"THE NEW WORLD ORDER does not Need any more any ARABS-Lebanese-Saudi-Egyptian people... Mobarak-Hussein-Assad-Boteflika-Kadafi love Izraeel-UK-US-Sarkosy-Obama. God, save Izraeel, .. we need Petrol in europe, not any Arabs-Muslim or Lebanes-Christian too."

But I felt hope from the other comments, people weren't 'Go to hell!' they were only saying 'enough is enough'

"Oh my God. Oh my God. 155 of ours for 1 of theirs. This should stop. Hamas must rein in their fighters. The enemy has no sense of human dignity. Until we are strong enough, we must show restraint."

"enough is enough"

I-want-it!!

Ive been begging mom to take me to the Library, I'm in love in a specific book, I cant even bear reading anything beside it!!(I still wish I could finish the book I have in hand first, but I want it!)

But there are few problems other than my mom not taking me there, I'm broke because Ive spend all my allowance weeks ago! and i don't even remember what did I spend it on but who cares! I'm planning to surprise my mom with that fact when we are already there so she would have no option but to give me(she knows I would drag her there again if I didn't get what I want) but there is 50% chances that she might not care and take me back home so she would teach me a lesson :S

If you are into fantasy fiction novels, I recommend(even though I haven't read or own it yet!) the book is Daughter of The Forest by Juliet Marillier, the book 1 in the series of The (Sevenwater Trilogy). I got interested in it by Annie's review about it, and also again when it appeared in one of my most romantic dream. I would also like to note its one of the recommend books for people who loved Harry Potter, Twilight etc.. :)

I'm thinking to also get IT by Stephen King, and The Host by Stephanie Meyer.

EDIT::
My mother finally allowed me to and is taking me tommorow! and is also giving me the money I need! Isn't she best mom ever???

Diagnose me!

Alright, I need some help, well a diagnose actually

My symptoms:

1. 24 hours have passed with me being a tears machine, maybe its the drama im watching online(which is awesome!! its name is 'Coffee Prince' a korean drama) but i kept crying every sad scene -including happy scenes!!- D:
2. Ive been thinking about myself, the things Ive done, the things I should have or shouldn't have done(Including past relationships, including HIM). its not like I never think about it but this time was different, I thought more seriously this time :O
3. I slept 3/4 of the day XO (of course after symptoms 1 & 2) and I still want to!!
4. I kept eating a lots of home made chocolate chip cookies >.<
5. My mood swings increased :(

Please doctor, fix me =D

Oh yeah, my sister woke me up and gave me a burger with fries(I was so sleepy, so I ate in bed XD ), and then she remembered that she had a weird dream of her feeding a fish a burger, and the fish was spilling some around. So when she told me that, I looked down to find out that I have been making a pond of crumbs :O does that mean im the fish she dreamt about??
(weird eh???)

In time of desperations, theres GOOGLE

by khavi in Deviant Art

I had a hard time sleeping yesterday, actually my naps and sleeping times are messed up right now, and I have no idea how to arrange it :S but I do know that the first step is getting a DAMN CLOCK, which I hate and I kicked it out of my room.

Ill return to my subject, I was so desperate for how to fall asleep, so I simply googled 'How to fall asleep?' it was such a stupid question but hey! it worked!!

http://www.wikihow.com/Fall-Asleep actually helped me, and I used the way 16. Practice Solitaire, I didn't even continue to read the other ways(I'm a solitaire addict) and it really help me sleep!! Yay me!

The 'Blair and Chuck' Couple

Screen Caps credited to http://www.blairandchuck.com/ Thanks!

They touch my heart the most(& Yes, more than Serena-Dan, or the triangle Jenny-Nate-Vanessa), perhaps its because their relationship proves that personality flaws cant disappear even if its with the person they are dying to be with.(but that doesn't mean the others don't mean anything!)

Messy hair looks better on Chuck! Don't you think so too?

The Sims 3

Coming out in 2009!!!! and you can pre-order it too!!

But it kind of looks like Sims 2 the PS2 edition, I dont know why :S

Anyways, you should get it when it comes out! its fun!!

How fast!

I've just started to realize that the end of 2008 is near, and I feel that it have passed too fast! Even though many events happened that have put me down or raised my spirits, I still feel that its ending too fast and soon.

I once asked my mother about why do you feel the day is too slow or fast, she told me when the person starts feeling down they feel that time is going too slow, and when they feel excited or joyful they would feel that time is going too fast.

I believe that my mothers words are true, but does that include years instead of days?!?!

Im getting alot of technos these days!

I got a new laptop this month, and my mom agreed to get a professional camera and will put it in my care!

And I'm posting rightnow by my new blackberry 8700

I feel so spoiled :S and that's not good since I'm already spoiled XP

Im back...

I'm tired and sleepy and I shall post about the wedding later on ... but I got to say I'm happy for those two(the two who got married) I just felt that they are a couple even before it actually happened!! ... WEIRD I know(I was a kid that time BTW). they truly are the perfect love story in my mind, and I don't know why LOL

May all of you have your happy love story :)

and remember, these stories doesn't have to have a happy ending.

Happy Eid!!!

Here is an early Happy Eid(because Ill be dancing all day during the next 4 days, not really but will in the 3rd day since I'll be attending my cousins wedding)

Pic from here

and you better enjoy the holidays!!!!!!!! because it aint coming again after a loooong while XD

Technology

The video is creepy but the song is awesome!!!

Okay, first Ill talk about the Tech Ive gotten for my B day!



HP Pavilion tx2000

Its amazing!! its screen is a touch screen! and its color is sleek black!! YUM

(Thank you mom and dad for the awesomeness!! :D )

2nd part is the Tech I would like to get:

Ive been crazy on this phone, but its doesn't work right in the middle east :( . So I have been looking up for the Xperia X1 which is amazing but its too buisness looking for me :S

And in the end, my heart still follows my favorite color purple, even though it cant be compared alot with the others but its unique in its own way, its W380a Purple!!

Even though its camera MP is low and it doesn't take videos, I still like the phone XD

Happy- Happy- Happy Birthday!!!

I became 8

okay kidding, I became 18!!

NO! I'M AN ADULT NOW(SCREAMS like Macaulay Culkin)

(Isn't he adorable???)

And it already sucks, even though only 2 hours and a half have passed >.> but still :(

But who cares, the adult age is when I become 20, because that's when the -teen finishes(eighteen, nineteen) or start driving(which i doubt Ill be doing since i suck at pushing the supermarket cart, and walking in heels) or get a job :D

oh yeah, I almost forgot!

Happy National Day!!!!

All pictures from here

and one last thing!!

Ive been tagged for the first time YAY!!

TOPIC: pick a person ONE PERSON that we all know which is A BLOGGER THAT BLOGS!! IN BLOGGER OR WORD PRESS!! only one!! and describe that person and tell her/him some stuff that you like about them and if there are any negative points then say them too!! and write the name!!

It has to be Blasha because she got me addicted to gadgets!!! XD Shes such a cool person, she knows everything about Techno!! I think shes the person Im going to be copying these days XD not really just kidding! Well maybe :p
Tag: Blasha, Errant, Lopi, eshda3wa and nyxxies

Selfishness

"You are so spoiled" My aunt commented

that line actually made me really think about my selfishness. Its true I call myself and know that I am selfish, but I never thought deeply about it.

Ive noticed in myself, and in other people who Ive known, have different kind of selfishness. First is the 'Princess' Selfishness, its the inconsiderate and only cares about people who is worthy of their attention(even towards their families), and doesn't tell the truth about a person to their face but does tell someone else even though the person could understand.

Secondly is the 'Its fine if the bad doesn't happen to me or who I know' Selfishness, this person doesn't regret of they caused harm and misery on someone else when it doesn't effect the persons family and friends or anyone they have knowledge with, this person leans towards Business since it fits their nature.

Last but not least is me, I tend to deny that I'm selfish even though I truly admit that I am, I usually am selfish in pleasing others than my own pleasure, and I put their happiness in front of mine even if I had to stay overnight with them and etc. And when I decide to put my own happiness in top of theirs, I become really selfish and regret it deeply in the night before drifting into sleep.

So what do you think is my type of selfishness? and what types have you encountered with?

Im such a brainless IDIOT T-T

Seriously, how could I have done such a thing D: Im so dissapointed in myself :(

what happend:
Okay, we were in Dubai yesterday, and I was filling out 200 coupons for the draw after 2 weeks in eid holiday. So when I was filling it on my own and my family were in a store nearby, a crazy idea just popped into my head! "Why dont I write his name and number, and if this coupon won, it might prove that I do love him and I wont be confused anymore!"

Being me I did it, and never thought of the consequences >__>

When I got home, I started thinking, "if he really did get the prize, wow it would be amazing-" and it finally hit me! how can he get his prize(if he won) if he doesn't have the other half of the coupon which is IMPORTANT!!!! I went OMG and WTH and went all curses to my stupid brain)

And when I tried to calm myself, I concluded my choices(if he did win, which I hope he doesn't!):

1. To never tell a soul about this, and just keep on with life(but I'm afraid they will show him the coupon in the draw, and he'll recognize my horrible handwriting!!)
   
2. Tell mom i wanted to repay him for his good deeds and she would give him the coupon(which he did a lot, hes a good person :) ) but mom would definitely figure out whats going on in my head
3. I don't know what else to do D: (and actually giving him the other side of the coupon is suicide, because then he'd know I feel the same way!! and I don't want him to EVER know about it!!)

I cant type anything else than this D=

PS: I'm deleting some of my personal pictures, because before yesterday, I actually found a blog that belongs to my cousins neighbors which me and my cousin hate! (and yup we are using it again her :p shes evil!!)(ain't it creepy how you can find people you know here! :S )

!Random Alert!

So I have been pretty bored lately, even though I should be partying since my exams ended yesterday (hooray!)

Yesterday was the day of the 'Twilight Movie'!! I cant wait to see it!! and it sucks that it wont be here in this month!! its going to arrive at the UAE cinemas in the 4th of Dec (which is a day after my birthday) but I cant convince my mom to take me to the movies because that week and the one after it will be hectic because of the preparations for the holiday, my cousins wedding, and my moms assignment(which my part is typing and not really making the whole thing). That means Twilight will be out of town until the hectic days are over :(

But I'll watch it online anyways ;D (if it was available :( if anyone has good links for online movies ... PLEASE SHARE! T_T )

So until my next post, knock yourself out with these pictures XD (but no stealing [wait! its not even worth stealing :S ] anyways don't!)

My fav snacks:

This heel Ive never gotten a chance to wear, I don't know why :(

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Mom's flowers

Remember the incident click here. this is where it happened. (I know taking pictures of this is pretty much lame but I don't care XP )(and to whom guessed which school this is, please keep it to yourselves lol)

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Memories...

This is something I wrote a year ago, it just popped in my head and I just had to write it down :)

And sorry I used to have a bad grammar back then(still have some until now LOL)

Enjoy!

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Did you have memory that stayed through your head a long while?

If it was a memory of the first time you realized that you’ve gotten taller by an inch in the morning

Or if it was the memory of imagining the life and world of the people in the cars passing by in traffic, and how much affection and care did they have or gave to the passenger

Was there a memory of a loved one cry in your presence that affected you deeply that you might even remember it on the hospital bed with the doctor beating his fist on you’re the left side of your chest

Sometimes, people save these memories in their mind, even if it wasn’t special, but was a small connections or an encounter with a stranger

Would it be the memory of the early mornings in the school bus waving back to the kids in the other car?

Or when exchanging a smile with a waitress in a diner?

Normal people would say that’s just foolish to remember any single detail of a passing stranger, but who are they to define normal if they do the same thing as every human does

Some memories unwarily leaves, with no alert or a sign of it, just walk out of the door leaving chunks or bits

People wonder how they could possibly forget the date of their first greetings with their first love in their lifetime

People also wonder how they would forget the pictures of their old friends in an old floppy disk

They also wonder how couldn’t they realize that their children has matured a lot that they already got a job at an office and sometimes came back home drunk or drugged

If it was possible, if you can collect all the memories from everyone around the world

Think … how a heart would understand countless experiences of hardship or happiness that large and big crates couldn’t hold

Think … of the people that created those memories, how they felt, how they lived it, and how it possessed them for a few seconds of a minute while laying down on their bed before falling in a deep sleep

Keep a memo to yourself how wonderful a memory means, how emotions it carries and how it just attracts a simple attention from you

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Whats your style?

I'm pretty much the white T shirt and blue jeans style :D

I rarely complicate my wardrobe, so its always as simplest as it could ever be LOL I called my style "The Laid Back Style"

And my sisters style is "Funky Style" because she likes the odd and cute stuff LOL

Whats yours??

I had the most romantic dream ever

It started of as usual, me with my family, but we were living in a city that had the same streets of London but the buildings looked like the buildings in Venice. And every time me, my mom and my sisters use the car to go somewhere, a person in a black suit with a black mask glides in front of me when I step out of the back seat. Nobody noticed him besides me as he laid down a book on the seat I have just got up from, and he glides away to leave so fast and no one noticed that either!

So I picked the book and closed the door, its name was the "Fairies' Landing" (which is a manwha I was planning to read next week) but it had the cover of "The Daughter of the Forest" by Juliet Marillier (Its a book I'm also planning to get to read it, I got interested in it by the review Annie posted in her blog). And in this dream, it was my favorite book! and I read it a million times!

From my confusion, i just shoved it in my bag, so when the same guy showed up again when I was getting out of the car in an other day, he left the same book and went away unnoticed by anyone but me. This time I opened the first page and found nothing, I flipped to the other pages until I found a scribbling in the bottom part of the page in the half of the book(Which is my favorite spot in any book! even my school books! don't ask why)

This is how it was written:(because I cannot remember what was written, I only remember how it looked like)(the * and _ means words written)

***:___
***:___
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***:
***:
***:

I couldn't understand what it meant! it didn't make sense until the 4th book arrived, it was the only scribbling that had its title added, it was "1st Conversation"

Then I started to understand what was written, it meant (Place, Time, Date, How etc.) and I immediately recognized who it was! it was HIM! it was the same date, time, place we had our first talk together!

And at that time I forgot everything else, even the reason that I cannot be with him of! All I wanted at that moment is just to be with him, in his hands, his eyes in mine never leaving it, his hand in my hair moving so slowly.

The dream ended when I turned around the corner of the street, and spotted him leaning on the wall waiting for me, then everything turned black and I woke up.

It was the most romantic thing I could ever dream of, I cannot even think of anything better than that. God I'm so desperate for him XP

I'm so mad at Goerge Sampson!

Let me give ya a short introduction to George Sampson

• Hes the cutest dancer ever!
• Hes only 14(or 15 idr)!!
• Hes the winner of Britain's Got Talent 2008!!!
• And he dances SO good!!!!

Ill tell you why am I mad but you have to watch these first:







That's his adorable little cousin dancing with him!

To the reason why I'm mad:


Now if you compared it with the other videos, you can see the large difference!! WTH!! where is the Phenomenon dance we saw in the previous videos!! What went wrong?? Is he stressed? Tired? what??!?@!? :(

Unrelated:

this kid made me cry :( and sniffle and sneeze >.<


This man too:



I happened to find this audition too:



Surprised?

I'm growing old :O

I have been depressed, always annoyed, sleeping a LOT, cant watch TV anymore, cursing a lot(The F and B words :S which is always a no-no for me), increased forgetting, always frowning and thinking. So in the end, I concluded that I'm growing old :S

I sometimes act like I'm older than my age, and sometimes I act younger than my age. I look older than my age, but some people say I look 13(I think those people eyes look like this @@)

Why is life so SLOW and depressing and confusing?? :( but its still funny in many ways ^^

OMG I just cheered up in a second ... seriously!! it happened when I typed funny LOL I'm gonna make this my magic word =D

PS: Excuse me for my randomness :P

I have found this amazing site about old women cartoon. click here

Istanbul Pictures!

Since what happened to me is taking all over my mind, I'm going to take my mind of it and concentrate on something else. So here is some pictures I took :

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The first picture I took, this was in Dubai Airport.

This is one of the hotel guests dog, he looks so adorable!

A group of cats hang around in front of the museum, all are napping in the sunshine.

Flowers in Turkey have the most amazing shades of orange.

A lovely flower we picked from the hotel lobby.

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The most comfortable boots I ever got! The inside material is very soft!

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Since the shop had everything amazing, I bought every single item and gift from there! These tops are my top favorite.

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I fell in Love with this top!

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Isn't it cute?

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This looks amazing when worn.

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Since I don't understand Turkish Language, I only watched Disney Channel on TV.

Being away from the country does not mean I shouldn't study.

I absolutely LOVE this show! Its Hilarious!

I hate Lilo and Stitch, they are always bichy and whiny.

In front of the hotel I was staying in.

The small park in front of the hotel. (full of bugs EW!)

I took these pictures when I decided to act like a typical tourist, by that I mean constantly taking pictures of the roads in the cab.

This is the huge stadium near to the hotel. (They say you can hear the loud cheers from the hotel)

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This is the beginning of my long row of Winning Solitare.

The 2nd time.

The 3rd time.

The 4th time.

The 5th time.

The 6th time.

The 7nth time.

And that is it!