Again, Him.

I was next to family in this huge van pulled over at a street. A huge truck next to us, fulled with gifts of wood, yes wood, long rectangle woods that when put together will make a nice house, my gifts also were wood but only one tiny gift was a different gift that I knew HE would have loved.

My dad was on the phone with him, as he told him to hurry up and he was sorry. My dad was apologizing for me, with me just wishing he would agree and hurry up here. And he did, he drove in towards us and got out of his cruiser. As my dad talked to him and pointing to the huge truck of gifts were for him, I couldn't stop giggling from the sight of my angry fiance, just looking adorably cute as he was surprised by the gifts and the presence of all of my family in the van, including my grinning face.

He was blown away, and looked very happy as we approached him, his eyes only on me as he thanked my parents while I was being nudged by every passing cousin.

I suddenly opened my eyes, and closed it again. An incredible urge was fighting in my hand to pick up the phone and dial his number and hang up when I hear his voice. and then I unconsciously schemed a plan for this, as I was planning on using my sister phone to do this since he wont be able to recognize it.

I just sat on my bed, thinking 'What?!?'

I couldn't understand, why was I dreaming of HIM again, I pretty much thought I was over him, wasn't I? Why am I scheming such a thing?

Why? Is it because I miss him? Is that it? It's true the last time I saw him was half a year ago, but why? why would I miss him? I couldn't analyze anything, but I felt dead tired, thinking and thinking about this dream but my frustrations made me forgot the part when I approached him and I was leaded to another scene. Yes there was more to the dream I mentioned that I couldn't remember.

Just why is my vacation beginning in this way? =I URGH Im so frustrated!

Ill just go and watch a Disney movie >.>

Post!

So, Ive been away for a while ( a long while, sorry). Nothing much happened, just digging through my old memories(as usual), and being the lazy bum I am (not doing my HW and goofing around with the family)

Anyhoo, I want books, damn!! I-need-em!!! <----- that's how Ive been feeling when I heard the new bookstore in alain is opening, I really hope its much better than the other one already available.

So any book recommendations? (prefers romance stuff... since Ima girl and all LOL)

I'll be brave, and come back XD

To summarize this as small as possible:

Reason(s) why I'm back: I missed blogging(more like OBSESSING)

Reason(s) I left: So my mom started to take an interest in blogging, she have been going from a blog to the next one NONSTOP, she liked some but she hated some, of course I would at least have some sense to think 'Pfft its one in a million chance for her to find my blog from clicking --->Next Blog repeatedly" Well, guess what happened next, she thought that there is no way only foreign blogs exist ... so she googled "Arabic Blogs" ... And there I panicked O_O and quickly switched my blog in anyway so it wont be read by anyone other than myself :S Oh yeah, she got bored of it now, so I guess I can come back, unless ... NAH!

Reason(s) why I acted like a coward: Hmm this is something I was thinking of before I went officially on hiatus. Why was I so scared and worried if she had read what I was writing? I think its because its embarrassing showing such thoughts to some one who Ive lived and loved my whole life(FYI that doesn't mean I don't care about you folks, but we are all Anonymous to each other after all lol).

Occasion(s) occurred while away: 1- I got accepted to UAEU!!
2- I'm not so happy leaving my free days + I have to act and be an adult ARGH I dont want that ... But I would like a driving license.
3- But I'm hopeful anyways :).
the unnecessary number 4- there's a new mall in Al Ain O_____O wow huge deal, means the lots-lots-lots-lots-lots-of-crowds in the only 2 malls here will be cut in half, which I think is better for people who hang in one of these malls daily(and I literally mean that, you see their faces there everyday from morning till night!!)

That's it, that's how boring -and somehow funny- my life is ... I'm glad to be back >w<

Funny.

Its funny when you think a subject will go just fine, and we will just laugh about it, but it turns to an unexpected way. Perhaps to an awkward way, or an angry situation, maybe only frustration will be felt, or simply weird.

Funny, is a word used for something that brings joy to a person, makes them laugh or giggle, but it can also be used as the other word of weird, how odd it is, how strange and unusual a thing is.

Funny, is how I feel now, I cant even describe it, its simply a funny feeling from many reasons, and the flu is definitely none of them.

Funny, how I cant understand why these reasons are affecting me this much.

Funny is also how this can be one of my darkest posts ever XD

I had the most romantic dream ever

It started of as usual, me with my family, but we were living in a city that had the same streets of London but the buildings looked like the buildings in Venice. And every time me, my mom and my sisters use the car to go somewhere, a person in a black suit with a black mask glides in front of me when I step out of the back seat. Nobody noticed him besides me as he laid down a book on the seat I have just got up from, and he glides away to leave so fast and no one noticed that either!

So I picked the book and closed the door, its name was the "Fairies' Landing" (which is a manwha I was planning to read next week) but it had the cover of "The Daughter of the Forest" by Juliet Marillier (Its a book I'm also planning to get to read it, I got interested in it by the review Annie posted in her blog). And in this dream, it was my favorite book! and I read it a million times!

From my confusion, i just shoved it in my bag, so when the same guy showed up again when I was getting out of the car in an other day, he left the same book and went away unnoticed by anyone but me. This time I opened the first page and found nothing, I flipped to the other pages until I found a scribbling in the bottom part of the page in the half of the book(Which is my favorite spot in any book! even my school books! don't ask why)

This is how it was written:(because I cannot remember what was written, I only remember how it looked like)(the * and _ means words written)

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I couldn't understand what it meant! it didn't make sense until the 4th book arrived, it was the only scribbling that had its title added, it was "1st Conversation"

Then I started to understand what was written, it meant (Place, Time, Date, How etc.) and I immediately recognized who it was! it was HIM! it was the same date, time, place we had our first talk together!

And at that time I forgot everything else, even the reason that I cannot be with him of! All I wanted at that moment is just to be with him, in his hands, his eyes in mine never leaving it, his hand in my hair moving so slowly.

The dream ended when I turned around the corner of the street, and spotted him leaning on the wall waiting for me, then everything turned black and I woke up.

It was the most romantic thing I could ever dream of, I cannot even think of anything better than that. God I'm so desperate for him XP

I'm growing old :O

I have been depressed, always annoyed, sleeping a LOT, cant watch TV anymore, cursing a lot(The F and B words :S which is always a no-no for me), increased forgetting, always frowning and thinking. So in the end, I concluded that I'm growing old :S

I sometimes act like I'm older than my age, and sometimes I act younger than my age. I look older than my age, but some people say I look 13(I think those people eyes look like this @@)

Why is life so SLOW and depressing and confusing?? :( but its still funny in many ways ^^

OMG I just cheered up in a second ... seriously!! it happened when I typed funny LOL I'm gonna make this my magic word =D

PS: Excuse me for my randomness :P

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Another weird thing happening.

Do you remember when I was saying how weird that every chance I might get to see him something really weird happens? well guess what, its happening AGAIN.

So firstly was the problem that my mom wants me to go and I don't want to, and then after 30 minutes I change my mind(and the sequence repeat). And when I do want to go- something happens, such as: my passport is ending in 2 months and airports don't allow that(they finished it in 2 days, so its fine now), an important meeting is in the day of the travel and this business trip was supposed to be canceled but returned again.

So what does this mean? Is this going to keep happening until I get on the plane, or will it end when I finally see him after all these months?!

This is SO confusing! :S

Anyways, CYA in a week :)